Why the silence?
I love having an outlet to express myself and that is exactly what TryFection is. It brings me so much joy to share the things I love with whoever pops in to listen. 2012 was definitely one of my most challenging years in every aspect of my life and having TryFection as a release was critical to my sanity:
- My heart broke over a job with a company I felt let me down but I also have to take responsibility that I failed to make it work
- I started a new job days later that provided all the challenges I longed for with the freedom to make the work my own, however the time commitment needed to succeed did not enable a work-life balance let alone time for blogging as the year progressed
- Pete and I faced the toughest challenge as parents we had yet to endure when the relationship with a school we adored fell apart and we realized how toxic the environment was to our children
- My dad battled stage 4 cancer
2013 and 2014 were a breath of fresh air:
- My dad was proclaimed cancer-free and hopefully I am not jinxing any future scans by cherishing that
- My kids thrived in their new schools, each found a group of wonderful friends, and you could actually see the growth of confidence in their faces and even their posture
- I achieved professional successes I had never experienced and my confidence grew leaps and bounds as well. I owe so much to my team.
In barges 2015…
Have you ever wished you could change everything in your life? I certainly never have. I was perfectly content. I loved our neighborhood, my career, our friends, closeness to our families... While nothing is perfect, it was everything I had ever wanted.
But then a professional opportunity knocked on my door. With Pete's support we decided it couldn't be passed up. I left a company filled with friends to start a new direction. I said good-bye to the agency world and entered the corporate side which also required a relocation almost 500 miles away from all our loved ones. We decided it would be easiest on our children if they finished the school year in Kentucky so I have begun our journey alone while Pete is flying solo holding down the fort.
I can honestly say I think it is going pretty well. I have to focus one day at a time and on the future. If I stop to think about what I am missing, I will have a breakdown. I am in a nice apartment and without anyone else to take care of I am putting all my energy into my new position, my health, and learning about our new home. While this has been an isolating experience, it has given me a once in a lifetime opportunity to devote a lot of time to reflect on my life.
I recently took a personality profile sort of test as a team building exercise and discovered I am yellow. I have taken a few of these in the past and while they are all pretty similar, this one was the most accurate by far. It was a little stunning to answer 20-ish questions and get back a full booklet with such deep insights on myself that couldn't be more true. It was almost creepy, actually.
Yellow is basically a free thinking optimist who needs constant stimulation and hates boring things, process and lots of data/facts to sift through. I am off the charts yellow. Here are some things in my report that deep down I have always known but never put it so simply and on paper from some computer-scary:
- warm, open, realistic and radiates optimism
- prepared to attempt almost anything
- enjoys socializing but likes to plan her entertainment for maximum effect
- seen by most others as friendly, practical, realistic and down-to-earth person
- may find it almost impossible to say no, even when the demands are unreasonable
- finds the diversity in the world immensely appealing
- has a tendency to want to procrastinate
- good at "reading" people and situations and will seldom be far wrong about the motivation or intent of another person (see, it's in writing)
- fiercely loyal to her friends
- prepared to sacrifice her own wants for the needs of others
- her home is a haven for people to have a good time
- proficient at alleviating the concerns of others
- may be prone to embellishing the truth
- rather self promoting and talkative (ya think?)
- may be perceived as too trusting
- may open her mouth and fall in (yes, but I can/have delivered many heart-felt apologies)
- her solutions may appear rather "off the wall" (which explains so many meetings in my past)
Anyway, I couldn't get over the details. This booklet was 20 pages of who I am and the only thing I could really argue was that it stated I would not be able to keep my commitments because I over-extend myself too much. In reality I will pull an all-nighter and have many times because I would rather die than fail to deliver.
I hope in 2015 I have time to spend on TryFection. I know I am one of many who uproot and re-root but I would love to share my experiences with you. Lord knows I could use the support. I hope to share the places I find, the tools and tips I learn about, and I know I owe recipes to a couple of you. With any luck, I may convince some of you to stop up for a visit and come play with us. As always, I thank each of you for your continued encouragement, friendship, love and support.